Yes Man / 沒問題先生 （No Spoiler / 無雷）

今天忽然想看電影，原本有三部想看，不知道選哪部，但是因為<墨水心>和<新娘大作戰>都要等到三點之後才有場次，所以就直接選<沒問題先生>。

由於金凱瑞近年的電影經常不好看，所以當我走進放映廳時，一直到電影開始幾分鐘，都還是懷著忐忑不安的情緒，不過等到電影切入主題後，我終於比較放心了一點，而且電影一直到最後結尾，除了好笑以外，也充滿許多發人深省的地方，非常適合大家去看，看完會覺得應該要對自己的人生多放手一搏。

我覺得我自己似乎也欠缺那種冒險挑戰的精神吧，很多事情都因為「覺得」自己不敢，或是害怕「自己設想的」結果，所以就決定不做了，不知道我因此錯失多少良機。我想或許我也該試試那種凡事皆說「yes」的精神，或許這樣我就會經歷更多奇妙的事件。

講到這裡，讓我非常想做一件這幾個月一直想做的事，但是這會涉及到別人的反應......真困難啊...

推薦生活無趣的人來看這部電影。

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Happy Birthday to DJ

It's DJ's birthday today so I am wishing him a happy birthday.

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復原

去年結束的感情，我想傷痕已經大致復原了吧，那種「過盡千帆皆不是」的感覺已經逐漸消逝了。

他還一直鼓勵我去認識新朋友，催促我去跟其他人交往，但是我都沒什麼進展，頂多零星認識幾個人，吃過飯或打過招呼後，就沒有下文了。

現在的我除了還是想認識些可以成為好朋友的人以外，突然有種想找對象的渴望，只是......當自己身處感情中時，不管遇到多帥的肌肉帥哥都心如止水，純欣賞就好；但是等到自己變單身時，肌肉帥哥卻……嗯…繼續等待吧，還是說有什麼奇襲之道呢？。

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2008年超級惡搞電影「Meet the Spartans」片尾大合唱「I will Survive」（連到Youtube的畫面比較大）：



(這部電影惡搞得很好笑，有機會可以去看)
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Nosebleed / 流鼻血 (!)

今天早上起來時，發現自己在流鼻血。

我想大概是因為睡眠不足吧，而不是因為昨夜或睡覺時有什麼令人血脈噴張的刺激，不過昨晚某件事情就足以讓人興奮，心跳加速，汗流不止。

今天早上確實覺得有點累，平常都是從台北車站走到辦公室的我，今天決定從西門走，這樣的距離比較短。

重慶南路上的陽光，讓事務所的空氣熱得像夏天，也讓情緒燥動了起來，鄰近的228公園應該會清涼許多吧。

I woke up this morning with a nosebleed.

I guess it was probably due to my lack of sleep, not any arousing stimulation last night or during sleep, although something last night was enough of an excitement. It raced up my heart beat and made me sweat non-stop.

I did feel a little bit exhausted this morning. Normally I walk from the Main Station to my office, but I decided to walk from Ximen today so that the walk would be shorter.

The sunlight on Chongqing South Road heats up my mood and the air in the firm. It must be cooler to be in the 228 Park just around the corner.

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小鹿的啟示

細雨瀟瀟，成群的野鹿在蓊鬱的喬木間嬉鬧覓食。

幾隻小鹿追著蝴蝶，跑到林間空地玩耍，

增強的雨勢，讓胡亂奔跑的小鹿模糊了視線，

於是就撞在一起了……

（完）

啟示：小鹿看到喜歡的蝴蝶時，要靜下心來說話，不要慌到都撞在一起。但是如果小鹿喜歡撞的話，那就盡量撞吧。

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definition: LUST

who would not want to trace the definition of your bulging muscles,
trained according to the most rigid standards
and clad with the most unnecessary piece of clothes in the world?

who would you grant the privilege to linger his fingers on your chest,
to surround your torso with equally strong arms,
to rest his palms on your butt cheeks,
and to bury his ecstatic face into the side of your neck,
where your carotid artery keeps pumping the most mesmerizing lustful scent into the air?

the definition of your body is lust.

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赤壁下 / Red Cliff II

（若你知道三國的故事，這篇文章就無雷）

昨晚看了赤壁下，雖然說我沒看過赤壁上，但是對電影劇情完全不會有任何理解障礙。

三國演義幾個重要人物的故事，從小聽到大，所以很容易就進入劇情，只是有幾個比較次要的人物，需要稍微思考和回想一下，才知道是誰，例如孫權他妹妹尚香。

電影最重要的段落就是「草船借箭」、「孔明借東風」和「火燒連環船」。電影中的表現方式非常雄偉壯闊，我個人是還滿喜歡的，這些看了許多遍的故事，還是百看不厭吧(?)。

當我看到「黃蓋」這個人物出現時，就一直在等「周瑜打黃蓋」這個典故的出現，但是居然沒有，倒是滿失望的。不過電影中倒是出現了曹操最棒的創作「短歌行」，聽這首詩在電影中被念出來，有種怪異的感覺。

「瑜亮情節」在電影中沒怎麼表現出來，倒是讓人覺得有點「瑜亮情」。另外，當諸葛亮在掐指一算時，看起來就像在檢查手指有沒有長繭(?)，不知道這手勢在赤壁上是否有所交代，不然如果電影在其它國家上映時，外國人會不會不知道諸葛亮幹嘛在那裡欣賞自己手指，而且還掐來掐去。

總括來說，赤壁下挺好看的，據說比赤壁上還要精彩，因為有人說赤壁上就像二小時的預告片一樣，沒什麼精彩的地方。不過，諸葛亮在赤壁上的戲份好像比較多(?) ，所以我那位喜歡金城武的朋友比較喜歡赤壁上。

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加州見聞錄01

今天一如往常，早上去加州上課，上課時很high，下課後很down，因為還是沒達成心願。

離開更衣間時，看到一位老先生正在穿衣服，穿衣服這動作沒什麼特別的，衣服品牌也沒什麼好強調的（好像是Calvin Klein的內褲？），最讓人感到不可思議的是，他穿起內褲時，居然把內褲往四周撐開一點，以便把上衣包進內褲裡。那情況並不像不小心紮進一點點的那種紮衣方式，而是還特地把上衣的下擺整個往下塞進內褲，然後繼續從內褲的大腿部份拉出來。那感覺就好像內褲下緣的四周多了一圈跟上衣同花色的小裙擺，而且內褲還因為裡面塞了上衣而皺摺不堪。嗯，那件上衣還真長。

真是奇怪的穿衣方式，不過或許是我孤陋寡聞吧。

self-esteem

What is self-esteem?

Is it the feeling I get when I realize someone I am interested in already has a boyfriend? Or the feeling I get when my ex even tells me that the boyfriend of the person I am interested in is much hotter than I am.

Is it the feeling I get when people I once chatted online with just walk past me, without bothering to say hello to me? Is it the fear of the pressure of socializing? Is it something that is falling into an bottomless abyss?

When I look into the mirror, I see a lonely face. There is nobody around to come behind me and hold me while looking into the mirror together.

Je veux être assez chaud comme lui, ou encore plus chaud. Je veux être lui, comme un homme qui attire tous les yeux dans le gymnase, un homme qui a un copain comme celui qui m'interesse.

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Boyfriend -

While Avril Lavigne may sing her best damn song about how she wants to take the place of somebody's girlfriend, I wish I had the same kind of guts to make such bold actions.

Am I too coward? Or am I just too rule-abiding? Is there, however, any rule in a game of relationship? If there is any rule, why do people break up when nobody breaks the rule? Well, I am not gonna dig too deep into such brain-hurting philosophical question.

I just want to be bolder and more capable of making any moves. Why am I so inert? Or I am just not experienced enough? But who needs experience if he can have a stable and lifetime relationship?

Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend music video is prohibited from embedding.
Click the link here to enjoy the music:

Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
I can see the way,
I see the way you look at me.
And even when you look away I know you think of me.
I know you talk about me all the time again and again

為賦新辭強說愁 / 醉翁之意不在酒

有什麼好煩惱的？不懂。

距離心碎的日子滿週年，還剩不到三個月，轉眼就要一年了。然而西洋情人節卻靜靜潛伏著，伺機亮出藏好的匕首，用力往我心窩捅去。月曆上多寫幾個字的日子，跟其它日子有何不同呢？不懂。但是也因為那次的心碎，讓我體驗了過去五年多錯過的事情。

2008年四月搬到西門的夾層套房住（超級新的大樓說），情緒超級低落的我，除了上班和健身房，就是窩在家裏。一段時間後，居然就跟大學畢業後甚少聯絡的同學重新聯絡了起來，他們陪我度過許多心情差的日子，尤其要特別感謝搞電影的那位（應該聽了不少我的瘋言亂語）。

接著還認識了大學時沒能認識的社長大人，雖然跟他在同一間大學讀大學部，又在同一間大學讀研究所，但是還是沒能在學校認識。許多光陸怪離的問題都可以問他，例如：不敢上Body Combat要怎麼辦？他就會說：走進教室就行了。

於是我走進了教室。

在西門住了一段時間後，愈來愈討厭自己住的地方，受不了樓上夾層的惡鄰，讓我甘願賠錢也要搬到別的地方住，想到說我其實住西門，倒是還滿常跑東區的，於是就在東區找地方住，雖然離工作遠了點，但是環境感覺好多了，也可以讓自己遠離心情低落時居住的爛地方。

於是我搬到了東區。

剛開始工作時，比較常出沒的地方是台北101附近，因為公司就在那邊。在那裡工作一年多的時間裡，很少到忠孝東路商圈逛，是後來換健身房後，才比較常出沒在這神奇的忠孝東路商圈。

搬到東區後，讓人心情愉快不少，而且週日早上還能從容徒步出門 :P。於是我就幾乎很少再踏進西門健身房，雖說下班後只要走個15分鐘，就可以抵達西門健身房，但是還是很少去，寧願回東區再進健身房。嗯，我想，偶爾時間可以配合的話，還是去西門一下好了，幾週前的西門全新體驗其實超棒的，讓人心情愉快，像小鹿一樣(?)，呵呵。

想到這裡，頓時覺得心情好了起來，哈。

Amazed - Lonestar

This is a song I like a lot lately.
I hope I have somebody to sing it to, and somebody to sing it to me.



I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

邂逅

時間：2007年11月2日星期五中午時分
地點：信義區某壽險公司

一如往常，我自個搭電梯下樓，外出吃飯，心裡盤算著待會該吃什麼，盤算著下午要做的工作

電梯到了一樓，門一打開，迎面而來的景象驚為天人：我先前看過的男模參賽者就站在電梯外，手裡還搬著東西。腦中的思緒，立刻被打散。

他的樣子，我在網路上看過許多次，那令人懾迷的自介。一定不會錯，就是他。但是害羞的我，又能怎樣呢。

於是我一如往常地走出電梯，不清楚自己臉上的表情是喜悅還是吃驚，同時又很想轉身，再次進入電梯間，跟著上樓。不過我還是繼續往外走，尋覓午餐的地點

不知道他到底來這裡做什麼，不知道自己是否看起來很蠢。

已經一年多了...

Boss Bottled

Boss Bottled is my favorite eau de toilette. I knew about this fragrance when I was about 18 years old(?), some time before my graduation from high school. I was in the airport in Italy with my mother, and we were having so much fun trying all kinds of fragrances. I decided I liked this one the most, but I bought D & G Masculine in the end. This bottle of my very first eau de toilette has been sitting on my shelf since then, still full.

There is a sale on fragrances and body care products close to my gym so I went there and took a look. I decided to buy Boss Bottled and started to use some once in a while. I REALLY REALLY love this smell. HMMMM... by the way I also love the smell of my Body Shop lavender shower gel and L'Occitane lavender body milk.

I found three commercials for Boss Bottled:

The first model for Boss Bottled is Alex Lundqvist, from Sweden. He is hot.


Another commercial with Alex:


The model in the current Boss Bottled commercial is Gabriel Aubry, from Montreal. He is not as hot as Alex.

exchange of words

No words were exchanged because both people were reading and enjoying their breakfast as people who know each other for a long time do not need to have conversations all the time.

No words were exchanged because one of them was angry at the other one's sadness, and the other didn't want to make the angry one even angrier all the while wondering if anger, instead of consolation, was the right reaction to another's sadness

No words were exchanged because phone connection was bad. One of them was having fun with several new people brought home by a friend, whereas the other was standing among millions of strangers, waiting for the moment to arrive.

No words were exchanged because they have different mother tongues, and one of them expects the other to speak the foreign language like a 100% native speaker. Well even native speakers of the same language do not understand each other completely all the time.

Listen - I hate this word. I do listen.
It's just that people in the movies and TV series speak much more clearly, and I can also turn the volume up. Even so, it's also possible (and it happens) that native speakers do not understand what some people in the movies or TV series say.

Patience wins the game.

I try to clam myself down, but it feels like I keep contradicting myself by trying to calm and suppress the rushing agitation down within. My heart rate and my breathing have been quite fast lately and it's not normal. When I lie down on my bed every night, I feel that the air that I breathe in always tries to escape from me as quickly as possible, and never reaches my lungs. So I will try to breathe deeply to smooth my breathing speed, but it only works for a second and then the air is reluctant to go inside my body again. Then I feel my pulse and count my heart rate. Well, it's still faster than normal.

It's disturbing.