雖然已經去過台中加州好幾次了，但是昨天這一次感覺特別奇妙。
昨天下午到台中加州做點重訓，順便試看看台中的Body Combat。走進加州時，覺得人數比之前幾次都還要多，但是不管再怎麼多，都還只能算是台北場的週末早上時段人數吧。
台中加州給人的感覺跟台北的不太一樣，這間健身房雖然表面上跟台北差不多（其實比號稱台北旗艦店的那間還要大很多），但是使用者的…組成就有點不同，台中加州讓我覺得健身房其實異男還滿多的。
因為我從來沒在台中加州上過課，所以走進教室時覺得有點緊張。台中的教室很大，人也不少，但是絕對不會擠，只是音樂倒是小聲了點，不知道是喇叭的位置還是怎樣，聽起來沒有台北場的快感，同時教練的麥克風聲音也有說不上來的怪異感，好像舞台離我們很遠很遠一樣。雖然他的動作還滿漂亮的，外表還算可以（？），但是選的音樂就比較不合我的胃口。
嗯，我還是比較喜歡台北那個 :p
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Friday, January 30, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
重返納尼亞 / Narnia Revisited
浮現在冰牆後的白女巫，依舊冷豔凌人。只要獻上我的血，就能把她釋放出來，她也願意助我一臂之力，實現我的心願，以作為交換的籌碼。但是值得嗎？
衣櫥裡的世界是虛幻的，衣櫥外的世界是真實的，不知白女巫的魔法，到了衣櫥外的世界是否能持續，是否能為我呼風喚雨，讓我左右逢源。我要的不只是土耳其軟糖，我也沒有國家需要收復，我要的是一顆心，一顆樸素但強壯的心，一顆沈默但瀟灑的心，一顆讓我魂牽夢縈的心。
白女巫或許會認為我是傻瓜吧，但是冷若冰霜的她，或許永遠不會懂，或許永遠只能孤獨地在冰封世界裡，獨裁統治她的王國，抑或只能寂寞地存在於某個空間中，等待她的忠實僕人帶來人類之血，予以釋放。
或許我也在等人來釋放我，或許吧。
White Witch, appearing behind the ice wall, still looked stunningly cold and beautiful. With my blood, I could set her free. In exchange, she offered to help me realize my wishes. But is it worthwhile?
It’s a fantasy world inside the wardrobe. Outside it’s reality. I don’t know if White Witch’s magic would remain magical outside of the wardrobe. Would it still be powerful? Would it make everything as I wish it to be? What I want, though, is not simply some Turkish Delights. I don’t have a kingdom to claim back, either. What I want is a heart, simple yet strong, silent yet dashingly gorgeous, a heart that I yearn in every dream and every wish.
Perhaps White Witch would think I am silly, but she, as cold as ice, would probably never understand. She would probably live forever in an ice-capped world all by her lonely self, ruling her kingdom in dictatorship. Or she would probably exist in a certain space all alone, waiting for her loyal servants to set her free with human blood.
Perhaps I am also waiting for someone to set me free. Perhaps.
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衣櫥裡的世界是虛幻的，衣櫥外的世界是真實的，不知白女巫的魔法，到了衣櫥外的世界是否能持續，是否能為我呼風喚雨，讓我左右逢源。我要的不只是土耳其軟糖，我也沒有國家需要收復，我要的是一顆心，一顆樸素但強壯的心，一顆沈默但瀟灑的心，一顆讓我魂牽夢縈的心。
白女巫或許會認為我是傻瓜吧，但是冷若冰霜的她，或許永遠不會懂，或許永遠只能孤獨地在冰封世界裡，獨裁統治她的王國，抑或只能寂寞地存在於某個空間中，等待她的忠實僕人帶來人類之血，予以釋放。
或許我也在等人來釋放我，或許吧。
White Witch, appearing behind the ice wall, still looked stunningly cold and beautiful. With my blood, I could set her free. In exchange, she offered to help me realize my wishes. But is it worthwhile?
It’s a fantasy world inside the wardrobe. Outside it’s reality. I don’t know if White Witch’s magic would remain magical outside of the wardrobe. Would it still be powerful? Would it make everything as I wish it to be? What I want, though, is not simply some Turkish Delights. I don’t have a kingdom to claim back, either. What I want is a heart, simple yet strong, silent yet dashingly gorgeous, a heart that I yearn in every dream and every wish.
Perhaps White Witch would think I am silly, but she, as cold as ice, would probably never understand. She would probably live forever in an ice-capped world all by her lonely self, ruling her kingdom in dictatorship. Or she would probably exist in a certain space all alone, waiting for her loyal servants to set her free with human blood.
Perhaps I am also waiting for someone to set me free. Perhaps.
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Tuesday, January 27, 2009
瓦力 / Wall-E
我在過年時看了瓦力，這是2008年必看電影之一，但是我卻沒看（倒是進電影院看了黑暗騎士三次），我在2007年時就已經計畫要看這部電影，但是最後還是沒看。
不管怎樣，這部電影非常讚，瓦力和伊芙之間的情愫讓我相當感動，即使我依舊不懂機器人士怎麼學會這檔事的。我很高興我終於看了這部溫馨（又浪漫）的電影，同時也很慶幸沒有在電影一上映就去看，不然可能會發生很慘的情況。
I watched Wall-E during the Chinese New Year. This is one of the must-see movies in the year of 2008, but I missed it (and I surely saw The Dark Knight three times in theater). I had been planning to watch it even when it was still 2007, but I didn’t in the end.
Anyway, this movie was great. I was quite touched by the thing between Wall-E and Eva, even though I still don’t understand how robots learn the first thing about that thing. I am happy that I got to see this sweet (and romantic) movie finally, and at the same time feel lucky that I did not see this movie right when it was out in theater. Otherwise, something terrible might have happened to me.
(Spoiler Alert/以下有雷)
When you actually love someone, his business (or direction, if you’ve seen the movie) becomes yours. You will fight or even sacrifice yourself to fulfill it so that your lover will be able to finish the calling of his lifetime. Even a robot understands this.
當你真的愛某個人，他的事情（或者說「指令」，如果你有看電影的話）就會變成你的，你會奮鬥，甚至犧牲自己，就為了完成這件事，以便讓你的愛人能夠達成他這一生的天命，連機器人都瞭解這一點。
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不管怎樣，這部電影非常讚，瓦力和伊芙之間的情愫讓我相當感動，即使我依舊不懂機器人士怎麼學會這檔事的。我很高興我終於看了這部溫馨（又浪漫）的電影，同時也很慶幸沒有在電影一上映就去看，不然可能會發生很慘的情況。
I watched Wall-E during the Chinese New Year. This is one of the must-see movies in the year of 2008, but I missed it (and I surely saw The Dark Knight three times in theater). I had been planning to watch it even when it was still 2007, but I didn’t in the end.
Anyway, this movie was great. I was quite touched by the thing between Wall-E and Eva, even though I still don’t understand how robots learn the first thing about that thing. I am happy that I got to see this sweet (and romantic) movie finally, and at the same time feel lucky that I did not see this movie right when it was out in theater. Otherwise, something terrible might have happened to me.
(Spoiler Alert/以下有雷)
When you actually love someone, his business (or direction, if you’ve seen the movie) becomes yours. You will fight or even sacrifice yourself to fulfill it so that your lover will be able to finish the calling of his lifetime. Even a robot understands this.
當你真的愛某個人，他的事情（或者說「指令」，如果你有看電影的話）就會變成你的，你會奮鬥，甚至犧牲自己，就為了完成這件事，以便讓你的愛人能夠達成他這一生的天命，連機器人都瞭解這一點。
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Monday, January 26, 2009
Ugly Betty / 醜女貝蒂
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Ugly Betty is a popular TV show in the north America. It has had really good rating for the past few years. Currently they are playing season 3 in north America.
I started to watch this TV series about 2 months ago. Now I am almost done with season 2. At first I felt that the entire show would probably be moral teaching all the time, and how inteligence and brain are more important than a pretty face. As the show goes on, however, I started to see the show in a different perspecitve. Sometimes the different forms of love exemplified in the show realy moved me. It even almost made me cry on several occasions. I am such an emotional man. Ha!
Well, I think that if a comedy can make you cry as well, then it's a good comedy.
醜女貝蒂是北美洲相當熱門的電視影集，過去幾年的收視都相當好，目前北美洲播放的是第三季。
我大約兩個月前開始看這部影集，現在差不多快看完第二季了，起初我覺得這整個影集大概會說教意味濃厚，智商和腦筋比美貌還重要之類的教訓，不過當我愈看愈多集後，我對這部影集有了不一樣的觀點。這部電影所表現出各種類型的愛讓我很感動，甚至有幾次還讓我差一點哭了出來，我真是感情豐富啊，哈。
嗯，我認為喜劇如果也能讓你哭的話，那才是最好看的喜劇。
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Ugly Betty is a popular TV show in the north America. It has had really good rating for the past few years. Currently they are playing season 3 in north America.
I started to watch this TV series about 2 months ago. Now I am almost done with season 2. At first I felt that the entire show would probably be moral teaching all the time, and how inteligence and brain are more important than a pretty face. As the show goes on, however, I started to see the show in a different perspecitve. Sometimes the different forms of love exemplified in the show realy moved me. It even almost made me cry on several occasions. I am such an emotional man. Ha!
Well, I think that if a comedy can make you cry as well, then it's a good comedy.
醜女貝蒂是北美洲相當熱門的電視影集，過去幾年的收視都相當好，目前北美洲播放的是第三季。
我大約兩個月前開始看這部影集，現在差不多快看完第二季了，起初我覺得這整個影集大概會說教意味濃厚，智商和腦筋比美貌還重要之類的教訓，不過當我愈看愈多集後，我對這部影集有了不一樣的觀點。這部電影所表現出各種類型的愛讓我很感動，甚至有幾次還讓我差一點哭了出來，我真是感情豐富啊，哈。
嗯，我認為喜劇如果也能讓你哭的話，那才是最好看的喜劇。
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Sunday, January 25, 2009
Goodbye to the Year of the RAT
and welcome to the Year of the Ox.
It's the last day of the year of the (stinky and gross) rat.
I hope in the year of the ox, everything will be bullish for me, like everything.
See ya rat, and here comes the MOO ~~
Happy Moo Year to everyone!
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It's the last day of the year of the (stinky and gross) rat.
I hope in the year of the ox, everything will be bullish for me, like everything.
See ya rat, and here comes the MOO ~~
Happy Moo Year to everyone!
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Saturday, January 24, 2009
writers write; dreamers dream ...
I told DJ that I think I write better when I write about sadness, and then he started to laugh and call it nonsense.
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Standing outside the room, I see you, among the cheering crowds and roaring audience inside the room, perform the usual tricks and do the fascinating moves. As one who does not participate in the scene, and as one who only stands outside, I feel content enough to be able to see you do the things you enjoy and accomplish whatever it is you want to accomplish. I am proud, and I feel moved. Even though you are watching over the crowds, I know that you know I am smiling.
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The problem is: the person described above is not me. I am, on the contrary, one of the participants, and one of the unnoticeable units that make up the entire building-rocking scene. I do not know how my mood gets worked up by those words encouraging people to perform certain actions. I do not know how I started to enjoy this chaotic yet beautiful sequence of orderly moves. I only know that I love being there, filling my brain with hopeful thoughts that someday I can, in addition to being a part of the cheering crowds, also stand away from the scene, and watch as a happy and supporting lover...
I do feel I write better when I write about sadness.
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Standing outside the room, I see you, among the cheering crowds and roaring audience inside the room, perform the usual tricks and do the fascinating moves. As one who does not participate in the scene, and as one who only stands outside, I feel content enough to be able to see you do the things you enjoy and accomplish whatever it is you want to accomplish. I am proud, and I feel moved. Even though you are watching over the crowds, I know that you know I am smiling.
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The problem is: the person described above is not me. I am, on the contrary, one of the participants, and one of the unnoticeable units that make up the entire building-rocking scene. I do not know how my mood gets worked up by those words encouraging people to perform certain actions. I do not know how I started to enjoy this chaotic yet beautiful sequence of orderly moves. I only know that I love being there, filling my brain with hopeful thoughts that someday I can, in addition to being a part of the cheering crowds, also stand away from the scene, and watch as a happy and supporting lover...
I do feel I write better when I write about sadness.
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Friday, January 23, 2009
巴黎味 / Le Goût de Paris
今天到台北東區216巷某條小弄裡的巴黎味餐廳吃晚餐，慶祝DJ的生日。
這間餐廳是我同事推薦的法國料理，他說是比較平價一點的正統法國料理，而且廚師還是米其林三星大廚呢。到現場後發現廚師是白人，我想應該是法國人吧。
我雖然沒有拍照，也不知道怎麼形容食物，不過我非常喜歡他們的料理，每道菜都很小（典型的法國料理），味道都很好，非常可口。
一份套餐約一千元出頭，比橄欖樹小館（Le Bistro de l'Olivier）還便宜一些。另外，巴黎味餐廳裡面的感覺比較寬敞，橄欖樹感覺就小了一點，沒什麼餐廳的感覺，倒比較像是某人家裏的飯廳，不過都很好吃就是了。
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這間餐廳是我同事推薦的法國料理，他說是比較平價一點的正統法國料理，而且廚師還是米其林三星大廚呢。到現場後發現廚師是白人，我想應該是法國人吧。
我雖然沒有拍照，也不知道怎麼形容食物，不過我非常喜歡他們的料理，每道菜都很小（典型的法國料理），味道都很好，非常可口。
一份套餐約一千元出頭，比橄欖樹小館（Le Bistro de l'Olivier）還便宜一些。另外，巴黎味餐廳裡面的感覺比較寬敞，橄欖樹感覺就小了一點，沒什麼餐廳的感覺，倒比較像是某人家裏的飯廳，不過都很好吃就是了。
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Yes Man / 沒問題先生 （No Spoiler / 無雷）
今天忽然想看電影，原本有三部想看，不知道選哪部，但是因為<墨水心>和<新娘大作戰>都要等到三點之後才有場次，所以就直接選<沒問題先生>。
由於金凱瑞近年的電影經常不好看，所以當我走進放映廳時，一直到電影開始幾分鐘，都還是懷著忐忑不安的情緒，不過等到電影切入主題後，我終於比較放心了一點，而且電影一直到最後結尾，除了好笑以外，也充滿許多發人深省的地方，非常適合大家去看，看完會覺得應該要對自己的人生多放手一搏。
我覺得我自己似乎也欠缺那種冒險挑戰的精神吧，很多事情都因為「覺得」自己不敢，或是害怕「自己設想的」結果，所以就決定不做了，不知道我因此錯失多少良機。我想或許我也該試試那種凡事皆說「yes」的精神，或許這樣我就會經歷更多奇妙的事件。
講到這裡，讓我非常想做一件這幾個月一直想做的事，但是這會涉及到別人的反應......真困難啊...
推薦生活無趣的人來看這部電影。
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Thursday, January 22, 2009
復原
去年結束的感情，我想傷痕已經大致復原了吧，那種「過盡千帆皆不是」的感覺已經逐漸消逝了。
他還一直鼓勵我去認識新朋友，催促我去跟其他人交往，但是我都沒什麼進展，頂多零星認識幾個人，吃過飯或打過招呼後，就沒有下文了。
現在的我除了還是想認識些可以成為好朋友的人以外，突然有種想找對象的渴望，只是......當自己身處感情中時，不管遇到多帥的肌肉帥哥都心如止水，純欣賞就好；但是等到自己變單身時，肌肉帥哥卻……嗯…繼續等待吧，還是說有什麼奇襲之道呢？。
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2008年超級惡搞電影「Meet the Spartans」片尾大合唱「I will Survive」（連到Youtube的畫面比較大）：
(這部電影惡搞得很好笑，有機會可以去看)
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他還一直鼓勵我去認識新朋友，催促我去跟其他人交往，但是我都沒什麼進展，頂多零星認識幾個人，吃過飯或打過招呼後，就沒有下文了。
現在的我除了還是想認識些可以成為好朋友的人以外，突然有種想找對象的渴望，只是......當自己身處感情中時，不管遇到多帥的肌肉帥哥都心如止水，純欣賞就好；但是等到自己變單身時，肌肉帥哥卻……嗯…繼續等待吧，還是說有什麼奇襲之道呢？。
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2008年超級惡搞電影「Meet the Spartans」片尾大合唱「I will Survive」（連到Youtube的畫面比較大）：
(這部電影惡搞得很好笑，有機會可以去看)
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Nosebleed / 流鼻血 (!)
今天早上起來時，發現自己在流鼻血。
我想大概是因為睡眠不足吧，而不是因為昨夜或睡覺時有什麼令人血脈噴張的刺激，不過昨晚某件事情就足以讓人興奮，心跳加速，汗流不止。
今天早上確實覺得有點累，平常都是從台北車站走到辦公室的我，今天決定從西門走，這樣的距離比較短。
重慶南路上的陽光，讓事務所的空氣熱得像夏天，也讓情緒燥動了起來，鄰近的228公園應該會清涼許多吧。
I woke up this morning with a nosebleed.
I guess it was probably due to my lack of sleep, not any arousing stimulation last night or during sleep, although something last night was enough of an excitement. It raced up my heart beat and made me sweat non-stop.
I did feel a little bit exhausted this morning. Normally I walk from the Main Station to my office, but I decided to walk from Ximen today so that the walk would be shorter.
The sunlight on Chongqing South Road heats up my mood and the air in the firm. It must be cooler to be in the 228 Park just around the corner.
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我想大概是因為睡眠不足吧，而不是因為昨夜或睡覺時有什麼令人血脈噴張的刺激，不過昨晚某件事情就足以讓人興奮，心跳加速，汗流不止。
今天早上確實覺得有點累，平常都是從台北車站走到辦公室的我，今天決定從西門走，這樣的距離比較短。
重慶南路上的陽光，讓事務所的空氣熱得像夏天，也讓情緒燥動了起來，鄰近的228公園應該會清涼許多吧。
I woke up this morning with a nosebleed.
I guess it was probably due to my lack of sleep, not any arousing stimulation last night or during sleep, although something last night was enough of an excitement. It raced up my heart beat and made me sweat non-stop.
I did feel a little bit exhausted this morning. Normally I walk from the Main Station to my office, but I decided to walk from Ximen today so that the walk would be shorter.
The sunlight on Chongqing South Road heats up my mood and the air in the firm. It must be cooler to be in the 228 Park just around the corner.
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Wednesday, January 21, 2009
小鹿的啟示
細雨瀟瀟，成群的野鹿在蓊鬱的喬木間嬉鬧覓食。
幾隻小鹿追著蝴蝶，跑到林間空地玩耍，
增強的雨勢，讓胡亂奔跑的小鹿模糊了視線，
於是就撞在一起了……
（完）
啟示：小鹿看到喜歡的蝴蝶時，要靜下心來說話，不要慌到都撞在一起。但是如果小鹿喜歡撞的話，那就盡量撞吧。
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幾隻小鹿追著蝴蝶，跑到林間空地玩耍，
增強的雨勢，讓胡亂奔跑的小鹿模糊了視線，
於是就撞在一起了……
（完）
啟示：小鹿看到喜歡的蝴蝶時，要靜下心來說話，不要慌到都撞在一起。但是如果小鹿喜歡撞的話，那就盡量撞吧。
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Tuesday, January 20, 2009
definition: LUST
who would not want to trace the definition of your bulging muscles,
trained according to the most rigid standards
and clad with the most unnecessary piece of clothes in the world?
who would you grant the privilege to linger his fingers on your chest,
to surround your torso with equally strong arms,
to rest his palms on your butt cheeks,
and to bury his ecstatic face into the side of your neck,
where your carotid artery keeps pumping the most mesmerizing lustful scent into the air?
the definition of your body is lust.
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trained according to the most rigid standards
and clad with the most unnecessary piece of clothes in the world?
who would you grant the privilege to linger his fingers on your chest,
to surround your torso with equally strong arms,
to rest his palms on your butt cheeks,
and to bury his ecstatic face into the side of your neck,
where your carotid artery keeps pumping the most mesmerizing lustful scent into the air?
the definition of your body is lust.
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Monday, January 19, 2009
赤壁下 / Red Cliff II
（若你知道三國的故事，這篇文章就無雷）
昨晚看了赤壁下，雖然說我沒看過赤壁上，但是對電影劇情完全不會有任何理解障礙。
三國演義幾個重要人物的故事，從小聽到大，所以很容易就進入劇情，只是有幾個比較次要的人物，需要稍微思考和回想一下，才知道是誰，例如孫權他妹妹尚香。
電影最重要的段落就是「草船借箭」、「孔明借東風」和「火燒連環船」。電影中的表現方式非常雄偉壯闊，我個人是還滿喜歡的，這些看了許多遍的故事，還是百看不厭吧(?)。
當我看到「黃蓋」這個人物出現時，就一直在等「周瑜打黃蓋」這個典故的出現，但是居然沒有，倒是滿失望的。不過電影中倒是出現了曹操最棒的創作「短歌行」，聽這首詩在電影中被念出來，有種怪異的感覺。
「瑜亮情節」在電影中沒怎麼表現出來，倒是讓人覺得有點「瑜亮情」。另外，當諸葛亮在掐指一算時，看起來就像在檢查手指有沒有長繭(?)，不知道這手勢在赤壁上是否有所交代，不然如果電影在其它國家上映時，外國人會不會不知道諸葛亮幹嘛在那裡欣賞自己手指，而且還掐來掐去。
總括來說，赤壁下挺好看的，據說比赤壁上還要精彩，因為有人說赤壁上就像二小時的預告片一樣，沒什麼精彩的地方。不過，諸葛亮在赤壁上的戲份好像比較多(?) ，所以我那位喜歡金城武的朋友比較喜歡赤壁上。
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昨晚看了赤壁下，雖然說我沒看過赤壁上，但是對電影劇情完全不會有任何理解障礙。
三國演義幾個重要人物的故事，從小聽到大，所以很容易就進入劇情，只是有幾個比較次要的人物，需要稍微思考和回想一下，才知道是誰，例如孫權他妹妹尚香。
電影最重要的段落就是「草船借箭」、「孔明借東風」和「火燒連環船」。電影中的表現方式非常雄偉壯闊，我個人是還滿喜歡的，這些看了許多遍的故事，還是百看不厭吧(?)。
當我看到「黃蓋」這個人物出現時，就一直在等「周瑜打黃蓋」這個典故的出現，但是居然沒有，倒是滿失望的。不過電影中倒是出現了曹操最棒的創作「短歌行」，聽這首詩在電影中被念出來，有種怪異的感覺。
「瑜亮情節」在電影中沒怎麼表現出來，倒是讓人覺得有點「瑜亮情」。另外，當諸葛亮在掐指一算時，看起來就像在檢查手指有沒有長繭(?)，不知道這手勢在赤壁上是否有所交代，不然如果電影在其它國家上映時，外國人會不會不知道諸葛亮幹嘛在那裡欣賞自己手指，而且還掐來掐去。
總括來說，赤壁下挺好看的，據說比赤壁上還要精彩，因為有人說赤壁上就像二小時的預告片一樣，沒什麼精彩的地方。不過，諸葛亮在赤壁上的戲份好像比較多(?) ，所以我那位喜歡金城武的朋友比較喜歡赤壁上。
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Sunday, January 18, 2009
加州見聞錄01
今天一如往常，早上去加州上課，上課時很high，下課後很down，因為還是沒達成心願。
離開更衣間時，看到一位老先生正在穿衣服，穿衣服這動作沒什麼特別的，衣服品牌也沒什麼好強調的（好像是Calvin Klein的內褲？），最讓人感到不可思議的是，他穿起內褲時，居然把內褲往四周撐開一點，以便把上衣包進內褲裡。那情況並不像不小心紮進一點點的那種紮衣方式，而是還特地把上衣的下擺整個往下塞進內褲，然後繼續從內褲的大腿部份拉出來。那感覺就好像內褲下緣的四周多了一圈跟上衣同花色的小裙擺，而且內褲還因為裡面塞了上衣而皺摺不堪。嗯，那件上衣還真長。
真是奇怪的穿衣方式，不過或許是我孤陋寡聞吧。
離開更衣間時，看到一位老先生正在穿衣服，穿衣服這動作沒什麼特別的，衣服品牌也沒什麼好強調的（好像是Calvin Klein的內褲？），最讓人感到不可思議的是，他穿起內褲時，居然把內褲往四周撐開一點，以便把上衣包進內褲裡。那情況並不像不小心紮進一點點的那種紮衣方式，而是還特地把上衣的下擺整個往下塞進內褲，然後繼續從內褲的大腿部份拉出來。那感覺就好像內褲下緣的四周多了一圈跟上衣同花色的小裙擺，而且內褲還因為裡面塞了上衣而皺摺不堪。嗯，那件上衣還真長。
真是奇怪的穿衣方式，不過或許是我孤陋寡聞吧。
Saturday, January 17, 2009
self-esteem
What is self-esteem?
Is it the feeling I get when I realize someone I am interested in already has a boyfriend? Or the feeling I get when my ex even tells me that the boyfriend of the person I am interested in is much hotter than I am.
Is it the feeling I get when people I once chatted online with just walk past me, without bothering to say hello to me? Is it the fear of the pressure of socializing? Is it something that is falling into an bottomless abyss?
When I look into the mirror, I see a lonely face. There is nobody around to come behind me and hold me while looking into the mirror together.
Je veux être assez chaud comme lui, ou encore plus chaud. Je veux être lui, comme un homme qui attire tous les yeux dans le gymnase, un homme qui a un copain comme celui qui m'interesse.
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Is it the feeling I get when I realize someone I am interested in already has a boyfriend? Or the feeling I get when my ex even tells me that the boyfriend of the person I am interested in is much hotter than I am.
Is it the feeling I get when people I once chatted online with just walk past me, without bothering to say hello to me? Is it the fear of the pressure of socializing? Is it something that is falling into an bottomless abyss?
When I look into the mirror, I see a lonely face. There is nobody around to come behind me and hold me while looking into the mirror together.
Je veux être assez chaud comme lui, ou encore plus chaud. Je veux être lui, comme un homme qui attire tous les yeux dans le gymnase, un homme qui a un copain comme celui qui m'interesse.
A
Friday, January 16, 2009
Boyfriend -
While Avril Lavigne may sing her best damn song about how she wants to take the place of somebody's girlfriend, I wish I had the same kind of guts to make such bold actions.
Am I too coward? Or am I just too rule-abiding? Is there, however, any rule in a game of relationship? If there is any rule, why do people break up when nobody breaks the rule? Well, I am not gonna dig too deep into such brain-hurting philosophical question.
I just want to be bolder and more capable of making any moves. Why am I so inert? Or I am just not experienced enough? But who needs experience if he can have a stable and lifetime relationship?
Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend music video is prohibited from embedding.
Click the link here to enjoy the music:
Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
I can see the way,
I see the way you look at me.
And even when you look away I know you think of me.
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
Am I too coward? Or am I just too rule-abiding? Is there, however, any rule in a game of relationship? If there is any rule, why do people break up when nobody breaks the rule? Well, I am not gonna dig too deep into such brain-hurting philosophical question.
I just want to be bolder and more capable of making any moves. Why am I so inert? Or I am just not experienced enough? But who needs experience if he can have a stable and lifetime relationship?
Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend music video is prohibited from embedding.
Click the link here to enjoy the music:
Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
I can see the way,
I see the way you look at me.
And even when you look away I know you think of me.
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
Thursday, January 15, 2009
為賦新辭強說愁 / 醉翁之意不在酒
有什麼好煩惱的？不懂。
距離心碎的日子滿週年，還剩不到三個月，轉眼就要一年了。然而西洋情人節卻靜靜潛伏著，伺機亮出藏好的匕首，用力往我心窩捅去。月曆上多寫幾個字的日子，跟其它日子有何不同呢？不懂。但是也因為那次的心碎，讓我體驗了過去五年多錯過的事情。
2008年四月搬到西門的夾層套房住（超級新的大樓說），情緒超級低落的我，除了上班和健身房，就是窩在家裏。一段時間後，居然就跟大學畢業後甚少聯絡的同學重新聯絡了起來，他們陪我度過許多心情差的日子，尤其要特別感謝搞電影的那位（應該聽了不少我的瘋言亂語）。
接著還認識了大學時沒能認識的社長大人，雖然跟他在同一間大學讀大學部，又在同一間大學讀研究所，但是還是沒能在學校認識。許多光陸怪離的問題都可以問他，例如：不敢上Body Combat要怎麼辦？他就會說：走進教室就行了。
於是我走進了教室。
在西門住了一段時間後，愈來愈討厭自己住的地方，受不了樓上夾層的惡鄰，讓我甘願賠錢也要搬到別的地方住，想到說我其實住西門，倒是還滿常跑東區的，於是就在東區找地方住，雖然離工作遠了點，但是環境感覺好多了，也可以讓自己遠離心情低落時居住的爛地方。
於是我搬到了東區。
剛開始工作時，比較常出沒的地方是台北101附近，因為公司就在那邊。在那裡工作一年多的時間裡，很少到忠孝東路商圈逛，是後來換健身房後，才比較常出沒在這神奇的忠孝東路商圈。
搬到東區後，讓人心情愉快不少，而且週日早上還能從容徒步出門 :P。於是我就幾乎很少再踏進西門健身房，雖說下班後只要走個15分鐘，就可以抵達西門健身房，但是還是很少去，寧願回東區再進健身房。嗯，我想，偶爾時間可以配合的話，還是去西門一下好了，幾週前的西門全新體驗其實超棒的，讓人心情愉快，像小鹿一樣(?)，呵呵。
想到這裡，頓時覺得心情好了起來，哈。
距離心碎的日子滿週年，還剩不到三個月，轉眼就要一年了。然而西洋情人節卻靜靜潛伏著，伺機亮出藏好的匕首，用力往我心窩捅去。月曆上多寫幾個字的日子，跟其它日子有何不同呢？不懂。但是也因為那次的心碎，讓我體驗了過去五年多錯過的事情。
2008年四月搬到西門的夾層套房住（超級新的大樓說），情緒超級低落的我，除了上班和健身房，就是窩在家裏。一段時間後，居然就跟大學畢業後甚少聯絡的同學重新聯絡了起來，他們陪我度過許多心情差的日子，尤其要特別感謝搞電影的那位（應該聽了不少我的瘋言亂語）。
接著還認識了大學時沒能認識的社長大人，雖然跟他在同一間大學讀大學部，又在同一間大學讀研究所，但是還是沒能在學校認識。許多光陸怪離的問題都可以問他，例如：不敢上Body Combat要怎麼辦？他就會說：走進教室就行了。
於是我走進了教室。
在西門住了一段時間後，愈來愈討厭自己住的地方，受不了樓上夾層的惡鄰，讓我甘願賠錢也要搬到別的地方住，想到說我其實住西門，倒是還滿常跑東區的，於是就在東區找地方住，雖然離工作遠了點，但是環境感覺好多了，也可以讓自己遠離心情低落時居住的爛地方。
於是我搬到了東區。
剛開始工作時，比較常出沒的地方是台北101附近，因為公司就在那邊。在那裡工作一年多的時間裡，很少到忠孝東路商圈逛，是後來換健身房後，才比較常出沒在這神奇的忠孝東路商圈。
搬到東區後，讓人心情愉快不少，而且週日早上還能從容徒步出門 :P。於是我就幾乎很少再踏進西門健身房，雖說下班後只要走個15分鐘，就可以抵達西門健身房，但是還是很少去，寧願回東區再進健身房。嗯，我想，偶爾時間可以配合的話，還是去西門一下好了，幾週前的西門全新體驗其實超棒的，讓人心情愉快，像小鹿一樣(?)，呵呵。
想到這裡，頓時覺得心情好了起來，哈。
Monday, January 12, 2009
Amazed - Lonestar
This is a song I like a lot lately.
I hope I have somebody to sing it to, and somebody to sing it to me.
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
I hope I have somebody to sing it to, and somebody to sing it to me.
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Sunday, January 11, 2009
邂逅
時間：2007年11月2日星期五中午時分
地點：信義區某壽險公司
一如往常，我自個搭電梯下樓，外出吃飯，心裡盤算著待會該吃什麼，盤算著下午要做的工作
電梯到了一樓，門一打開，迎面而來的景象驚為天人：我先前看過的男模參賽者就站在電梯外，手裡還搬著東西。腦中的思緒，立刻被打散。
他的樣子，我在網路上看過許多次，那令人懾迷的自介。一定不會錯，就是他。但是害羞的我，又能怎樣呢。
於是我一如往常地走出電梯，不清楚自己臉上的表情是喜悅還是吃驚，同時又很想轉身，再次進入電梯間，跟著上樓。不過我還是繼續往外走，尋覓午餐的地點
不知道他到底來這裡做什麼，不知道自己是否看起來很蠢。
已經一年多了...
地點：信義區某壽險公司
一如往常，我自個搭電梯下樓，外出吃飯，心裡盤算著待會該吃什麼，盤算著下午要做的工作
電梯到了一樓，門一打開，迎面而來的景象驚為天人：我先前看過的男模參賽者就站在電梯外，手裡還搬著東西。腦中的思緒，立刻被打散。
他的樣子，我在網路上看過許多次，那令人懾迷的自介。一定不會錯，就是他。但是害羞的我，又能怎樣呢。
於是我一如往常地走出電梯，不清楚自己臉上的表情是喜悅還是吃驚，同時又很想轉身，再次進入電梯間，跟著上樓。不過我還是繼續往外走，尋覓午餐的地點
不知道他到底來這裡做什麼，不知道自己是否看起來很蠢。
已經一年多了...
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Boss Bottled
Boss Bottled is my favorite eau de toilette. I knew about this fragrance when I was about 18 years old(?), some time before my graduation from high school. I was in the airport in Italy with my mother, and we were having so much fun trying all kinds of fragrances. I decided I liked this one the most, but I bought D & G Masculine in the end. This bottle of my very first eau de toilette has been sitting on my shelf since then, still full.
There is a sale on fragrances and body care products close to my gym so I went there and took a look. I decided to buy Boss Bottled and started to use some once in a while. I REALLY REALLY love this smell. HMMMM... by the way I also love the smell of my Body Shop lavender shower gel and L'Occitane lavender body milk.
I found three commercials for Boss Bottled:
The first model for Boss Bottled is Alex Lundqvist, from Sweden. He is hot.
Another commercial with Alex:
The model in the current Boss Bottled commercial is Gabriel Aubry, from Montreal. He is not as hot as Alex.
There is a sale on fragrances and body care products close to my gym so I went there and took a look. I decided to buy Boss Bottled and started to use some once in a while. I REALLY REALLY love this smell. HMMMM... by the way I also love the smell of my Body Shop lavender shower gel and L'Occitane lavender body milk.
I found three commercials for Boss Bottled:
The first model for Boss Bottled is Alex Lundqvist, from Sweden. He is hot.
Another commercial with Alex:
The model in the current Boss Bottled commercial is Gabriel Aubry, from Montreal. He is not as hot as Alex.
Monday, January 5, 2009
exchange of words
No words were exchanged because both people were reading and enjoying their breakfast as people who know each other for a long time do not need to have conversations all the time.
No words were exchanged because one of them was angry at the other one's sadness, and the other didn't want to make the angry one even angrier all the while wondering if anger, instead of consolation, was the right reaction to another's sadness
No words were exchanged because phone connection was bad. One of them was having fun with several new people brought home by a friend, whereas the other was standing among millions of strangers, waiting for the moment to arrive.
No words were exchanged because they have different mother tongues, and one of them expects the other to speak the foreign language like a 100% native speaker. Well even native speakers of the same language do not understand each other completely all the time.
Listen - I hate this word. I do listen.
It's just that people in the movies and TV series speak much more clearly, and I can also turn the volume up. Even so, it's also possible (and it happens) that native speakers do not understand what some people in the movies or TV series say.
Patience wins the game.
I try to clam myself down, but it feels like I keep contradicting myself by trying to calm and suppress the rushing agitation down within. My heart rate and my breathing have been quite fast lately and it's not normal. When I lie down on my bed every night, I feel that the air that I breathe in always tries to escape from me as quickly as possible, and never reaches my lungs. So I will try to breathe deeply to smooth my breathing speed, but it only works for a second and then the air is reluctant to go inside my body again. Then I feel my pulse and count my heart rate. Well, it's still faster than normal.
It's disturbing.
No words were exchanged because one of them was angry at the other one's sadness, and the other didn't want to make the angry one even angrier all the while wondering if anger, instead of consolation, was the right reaction to another's sadness
No words were exchanged because phone connection was bad. One of them was having fun with several new people brought home by a friend, whereas the other was standing among millions of strangers, waiting for the moment to arrive.
No words were exchanged because they have different mother tongues, and one of them expects the other to speak the foreign language like a 100% native speaker. Well even native speakers of the same language do not understand each other completely all the time.
Listen - I hate this word. I do listen.
It's just that people in the movies and TV series speak much more clearly, and I can also turn the volume up. Even so, it's also possible (and it happens) that native speakers do not understand what some people in the movies or TV series say.
Patience wins the game.
I try to clam myself down, but it feels like I keep contradicting myself by trying to calm and suppress the rushing agitation down within. My heart rate and my breathing have been quite fast lately and it's not normal. When I lie down on my bed every night, I feel that the air that I breathe in always tries to escape from me as quickly as possible, and never reaches my lungs. So I will try to breathe deeply to smooth my breathing speed, but it only works for a second and then the air is reluctant to go inside my body again. Then I feel my pulse and count my heart rate. Well, it's still faster than normal.
It's disturbing.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
2009年第三天
連假的第三天了，這幾天過得超無聊，沒辦法運動，頂多跟朋友吃飯，看影集，打電腦遊戲。好久沒出國玩了…
六年來，第一次跨年沒人陪。
雖然說今年的101煙火確實不好看，但是如果我不是單身的話，如果有人陪的話，即使煙火再爛，即使沒有煙火可以看，即使窩在家裏睡覺，都能讓人感到幸福。
我超愛看煙火的，但是我超討厭自己一個人看煙火。
去年的大稻埕煙火是自己一個人看，跨年煙火也是自己一個人看。
想認識的人不知道想不想認識我。
想不想每年陪我看煙火。
希望。
六年來，第一次跨年沒人陪。
雖然說今年的101煙火確實不好看，但是如果我不是單身的話，如果有人陪的話，即使煙火再爛，即使沒有煙火可以看，即使窩在家裏睡覺，都能讓人感到幸福。
我超愛看煙火的，但是我超討厭自己一個人看煙火。
去年的大稻埕煙火是自己一個人看，跨年煙火也是自己一個人看。
想認識的人不知道想不想認識我。
想不想每年陪我看煙火。
希望。
Friday, January 2, 2009
DISTURBIA
It's the second day of 2009, and I am writing this blog entry, listening to Rihanna's Disturbia all the while wishing I were doing something else in the outdoor, with someone.
It has been cold for two days. I watched the fireworks at Taipei 101 by myself as the year turned into 2009. I didn't hug anyone or kiss anyone this time. I could have had gone to bed, but I still went to see the fireworks because I love watching fireworks. Many people went to see fireworks in couples or in groups. As soon as the fireworks ended, I turned my back on Taipei 101 and hurried out of the SYS Memorial Hall through hugging crowds, not wanting to be around them.
I went to the gym this morning to did some pedalling for 30 minutes, on the machine that would keep your upper body upright and still. I haven't worked out for almost 3 weeks. I miss working out and the sweat.
I missed some parties these past two weeks because I cannot exercise or drink alcohol. Well, I probably would still be too coward to go by myself if I had not had the keloid scar removal operation.
I envy those who are accompanied by their loved one at times when they need to be accompanied, weather happy or sad, or simply killing time.
Happy New Year.
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It has been cold for two days. I watched the fireworks at Taipei 101 by myself as the year turned into 2009. I didn't hug anyone or kiss anyone this time. I could have had gone to bed, but I still went to see the fireworks because I love watching fireworks. Many people went to see fireworks in couples or in groups. As soon as the fireworks ended, I turned my back on Taipei 101 and hurried out of the SYS Memorial Hall through hugging crowds, not wanting to be around them.
I went to the gym this morning to did some pedalling for 30 minutes, on the machine that would keep your upper body upright and still. I haven't worked out for almost 3 weeks. I miss working out and the sweat.
I missed some parties these past two weeks because I cannot exercise or drink alcohol. Well, I probably would still be too coward to go by myself if I had not had the keloid scar removal operation.
I envy those who are accompanied by their loved one at times when they need to be accompanied, weather happy or sad, or simply killing time.
Happy New Year.
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